Last year, I did a post called “Too Whatever.” Upon a reader’s request, I’m writing it again, with a little spin, a little more backstory, a little more dimension. I pray it blesses you. God loves your “Too Whatevers.”
When I turned forty, I had a strong and wonderful moment of empowerment.
Old enough to command respect. Old enough not to care what people think. Old enough to bust out and do whatever I want.
It was a fleeting moment.
A sudden fear of being obsolete and out of touch came over me as I studied my hair in the mirror, and the half-inch of showing roots looked whiter than ever. And all that empowerment? Fled away, its whimpering and ancient gray tail tucked between its legs.
I shared this aging angst with my friend, the lovely Chana Keefer.
She understood. She laughed. And she told me that she had the same fear about her modeling career–when she was sixteen.
At the time, fifteen-year-old Brooke Shields had hit it big, and Chana was one year older. She was, she decided, over the hill, past her prime, antiquated, passé. She hadn’t done enough in her field. She was doomed to fail at life.
And this conversation was an eye-opener for me.
Chana heard the same lies, at a young age, at sixteen years old, that were trying to take me out at forty.
The same lies.
As I talked to Chana, the Holy Spirit showed me a dark figure holding handfuls of green slime, like really wet neon green bubble gum. He was waiting for someone to walk by so he could throw it at them and cover them with the nasty goo.
And I heard the Holy Spirit say this: The enemy has nothing new. He has no creativity or orderly strategy, even though it seems like he does at times. He just stands there and throws the same lies at all of you.
It’s up to you what sticks.
It showed me the truth. The same lies come against all of us, no matter who we are or what we are dealing with.
Too old. Too young. Too late. Too shy. Too inexperienced.
We all hear the same doubts and battle the same insecurities.
It’s up to us what sticks.
I shared this story with a friend in the music industry. She said, “YES!! When I was in my twenties and thirties and I went to auditions, I was always afraid of being told I was too young for the part. I thought when I turned 40, that feeling would go away! And it did, but it was immediately replaced with a new one. Too seasoned. I started hearing people say the company told them they were ‘too seasoned’ for a part. Overnight, my fear went from being ‘too young,’ to being ‘too seasoned.”
Whatever we put our faith in that isn’t God will let us down. We will just trade one lie for another, over and over, until we realize we have to stand on the miraculous power of the truth of God for our lives and nothing else.
His word for us??
We are OVERCOMERS.
You are an overcomer. An Overcomer of the Too Whatevers.
All the enemy has is lies. That’s all he has. He can’t create, he can only pervert what God has made with lies.
When you approach your destiny, he flings those sticky green lies at you, harder than ever.
Don’t believe the lies that say, “you can’t,” whatever they are.
In that moment of 40-year-old empowerment, I started my blog. I started appearing on media. I started doing video and ministering online.
Not long after, when the doubts came, I went to the Lord.
“Father. I am too late. I waited too long. I’m too old.”
And I swear to you, He laughed.
I heard Him laugh for what felt like a very long time.
It made me laugh.
And then I heard Him say this: I love too old.
And before my eyes, I saw Abraham and Sarah, Moses, Daniel, Anna, and Caleb.
They were all “too old” when God did some of the most amazing things in their lives.
“I love too old.”
“Ok then,” I said. “You love too old. Well. Let’s see what you can do with this.”
Truth is, you might be older or younger than the average success story. You might have held on to a vision for years. You might have too much on your plate to see your way to living your dreams or reaching your goals.
But God loves our “Too Whatevers.” He loves showing up in the gap, like He did for Gideon and his tiny army and bringing them to victory.
When I said, “Too old,” God did not try to talk me out of it. He said, “Oh, that? No problem. I love it.”
I felt that He was laughing because He much prefers to show His strength in us than let us lean on our own. When we feel weak, He is strong in us.
I could tell you that you haven’t missed the boat. And ultimately, I believe it is true. God wants to use you. He wants to help you. There is plenty of time. There’s always a place for the thing you carry because it’s never been done by you, in your own unique way.
But even if you did miss the boat, get this–
IT. DOES. NOT. MATTER.
I’m laughing typing this.
Even if you did miss it, your Daddy in Heaven loves a missed boat. He loves too old! He loves when we are late to the party! He loves TOO…WHATEVER!!!
I love thinking of Caleb, armored up and raring to go. I imagine that he must have felt it too, at least one or two times, that he had missed the boat. It makes me wonder if he was determined not to miss it again, if God used some of that pent up energy from the past to give Caleb a greater measure of courage, if Caleb felt closer to death than the others because of his age, and rather than letting it weaken him, he wanted to go out with a bang in the promised land. It seems that God used the very thing that could hold Caleb back to make him the fiercest warrior of the day.
Never give up. Never, never, never, never, never give up. You have destiny inside you. You carry purpose and a plan. You carry the future. Don’t quit. If you have a commission on your life, He will help you achieve it. Don’t leave a vision because it sat too long, unless He tells you to leave it. He loves missed boats, late-to-the-party guests. He loves your “Too Whatevers.”
Father, I thank You that You are the God of Second Chances! And Third! And Fourth! And A Million!!! Thank You that nothing is impossible for You! Even our weaknesses and stumblings–especially our weaknesses and stumblings. You show Yourself strong in our weaknesses. You love our TOO WHATEVERS!
Thank You that we can’t miss the boat in You if we really want to catch it. God, we lay it all at Your feet. Our doubts. Our insecurities. Our struggles. Time. Energy. Inspiration. Skill level. Experience. Team. Whatever we feel is lacking, we give it to You.
We give you permission. Take what we have to give, however we feel about it, and DO SOMETHING AWESOME WITH IT!
We rebuke the lies of the enemy that would come in and shut us down and shut us up! We rebuke the sticky green goo that tries to attach itself to us! It cannot touch us, it cannot stick–because we stand on the word of TRUTH! We are OVERCOMERS IN CHRIST! We stand in expectation, that You will take our “Too Whatevers” and turn them in to SOLID GOLD. In Jesus’ name, amen!